Each day you didn’t notice but building up to make and give shape of you.
today i sit back and realized how much life has thrown me in and out. all this time i tried to fit best in situation like to get govt. services to switch career and go for higher studies. my life was quite far from word perfect on personal front . the only thing i had accomplished thru that time was- i was perfect gal in respect to my boy and my family. Being at home, not stepping in pub and club not boozing not talking boys ..huh seriously . i feel yuck now, for whom did i sacrifice all my fun. Preach to all the young gals…never stop living your life for tomorrow. shalini,i remember you once said this to me. i am glad you shared this to me. 🙂
From quite few months back another version of me has come up… like i am gaining myself back. “The happy sparkling Kirti singh”. i am living for my self. i am meeting new ppl, i am not keeping my joy for the time when he will come i will do. time has passed and it will pass only miss will be mine if i don’t. so from now i will live my life for myself not for anyother. Anyother will be just anyother. i thank god many times for helping me getting through Legato. still my fingers are trembling, writing this down. the amount of happiness it’s giving me.
i have gained confidence like never before. i got to know the power of my subconscious mind. i know i can get anything in this world like any goddamn things. no power can withhold me. my target now is it read as much i can in ETL. i know and am sure i will be ace in my future company. the best days are on the way the college topper is back in mode.
realization: how maturity gives you new wings. earlier i was thinking fun can happen only with boyfriends now from same BF concept i am far away. i love gals company i like random boys company, i love talking vegetable wala and my home helper alot. i love my own company. i thank god for everything that it has taken from me . and thank from core of my heart for blessing with all that i have today (Bhaii you came first in my mind). life is balance. not more not less. today i feel liberated. i enjoy my own company. i dress for my self. i pamper my self with food, wine, smokeup, full body checkup , parlor visit, trying new genre of music and book. i am glad in this entire time passed i never left my work out and diet. that is the best thing i did if i look back. ppl around me in office in 3 yrs of J&J tenure has changed so much,they got double chin, muffin abs and tires in waist. gals in gym think i am 2015 passed out i mean in my 30’s they think i am 26 :). glad. also they say this gal is high maintenance..i mean yeah i am ,i cann’t live in hovel, be in rags and go hunger. live high maintenance life- STAYWOW.
At the end i will say- ” all the chaos and all the random things make sense in the end “. Love you Zindagi.